Dear You...that's right. You know who you are....

I swore I wouldn't do this.  I've seen other girls do this, and I have thought it was...well weird.  But, I have to this time.  I've come to the conclusion that I haven't met you yet.  Well, if I do know you, you sure aren't doin' anything about it!  Come on now, we don't have forever!  Ha.  Yeah that's funny that I say that cuz ha we actually do have forever.  Look.  What I'm trying to say is that I'm so excited to love you.  I'm so excited for that forever!  I'm excited to learn and grow with you and to make mistakes and to have to learn how to carefully say what it is that is bothering me.  I'm excited to trust you completely and to have my profile pictures be of you and me.  I'm excited to get excited when you come home from work or school.  I'm excited to be out-of-control giggly with you.  That annoying kind that other people around us cant stand.  Because everyone should have a chance at that kind of love.  I'm excited to have babies that look like you and to have coordinating family halloween costumes.  I think of you often.  I feel you close.  I pray for you often.  I pray that you are preparing for me and that you will know it when it's right.  I pray that I will know it too - that I will be brave and see you.  Really see you.

I actually dreamt about you last night - a person I'd never seen before.  And let me say, if you really do look like that guy from my dream...well win for Hannah cuz sheeewwt!!  You was gorrrrgeous!!  :)  Ha, I then spent half the day looking for you as I walked from class to class.  Just to see if maybe I'd recognize you.  Nope!  Not today.  Just around the corner, maybe.  Maybe you're in a different city.  Or state.  Or country.  Or continent.  Maybe you're a missionary.  BAH!  I've already done that missionary thang.  Mmm mm.  No thanks.  Not again.  Maybe you're four years older than me!  And done with school!  Oh that would be nice.  Or maybe we could go to the Library together if you aren't.  Whatever is fine with me.

Honestly, whoever, wherever you are...I know you're amazing!!  You have to be!!  (I'm kinda bankin' on that).  I know the Lord has a plan for me.  And you!  Forever really is just a heartbeat away.
And just so you know,
I loved you before I knew you.  :)

MAD scientist....

Listen.  I am so ready to be done with school!!!!!  At least for the summer.  It is this time of year that I cannot focus.  It's sunny outside (sometimes) and all I can think about is being out on the lake, soaking in so much sunshine, that I can feel my heartbeat in my eyes.   I know that many of you may be in the same situation as me, unable to focus, but really I think that my spring fever has been a little extra heavy this year.  I cannot wait to be home with my parents and best friend, Adam.  Also, I'm excited to have a job and earn some money!  Oh, and did I mention that I am going to London?!  Can I get a what, what?!  My parents are sending Adam and me to visit our cousin there.  How awesome is that?!  Very.   So it is obvious that there is much to look forward to this summer.  Almost done, folks!  We can do it!!!