Thursday, September 22, 2011

Slow Down, You're Doin' Fine.

           The past couple of days I have left campus feeling discouraged and defeated.  I've sat at the bus stop with my chin in my hand, earphones in my ears, and a dazed look in my eyes.  Today I stepped on the bus on the verge of tears, and one of my favorite songs by Billy Joel came on.  Vienna....
Slow down, you crazy child 
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid? 


Where's the fire, what's the hurry about? 
You'd better cool it off before you burn it out
You've got so much to do and
Only so many hours in a day 


But you know that when the truth is told..
That you can get what you want or you get old
You're gonna kick off before you even
Get halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you're doing fine 
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time 

Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Tonight,...
Too bad but it's the life you lead
you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong, you know
You can't always see when you're right. you're right 


You've got your passion, you've got your pride
but don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you crazy child
and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two 

When will you realize,..Vienna waits for you?
And you know that when the truth is told
that you can get what you want or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get half through
Why don't you realize,. Vienna waits for you
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you? 
      
        As I listened to this song, I  thought to myself that everything is going to be okay. I need to calm down.  School is hard, but I need to stop getting so ahead of myself (in several aspects of life) and just slow down, because I am doing fine.  Then I looked at all of the people on the bus around me, and was almost brought to tears (again) thinking about how similar stresses must be weighing on their shoulders as well.  I wanted to stand up in the bus and just say, "you guys are doing alright!  Ya, know?  Give yourself a chance to breathe!"  Of course, I realize that I don't know any of their situations, and maybe they are failing in school because they arent even trying, but there are always reasons for peoples' stresses, and all we can do is muddle along and do our best. 
 You don't always have to get A's in every one of your classes in college - trust me, this is a hard concept for me to grasp as well.  Sometimes you will have to stand up and leave an Economics seminar because it is just way too boring for you to handle at the time, or maybe you need to take your phone off the hook and just disappear for a while.  Just slow down.  You're doing fine.  

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Guilty Pleasure

Sometimes I reward myself with these. 
Nothing like starting the day off right with a milk chocolate Lindor truffle.
One time I let my brother have one, and he said he felt like he just made out with someone.  They are that good.
The other day was kinda a bad one.  So I bought myself two, not one, TWO bars 
of Lindor truffle bites. 
If you ever give me these, I will love you and we can be best friends.  
I will marry the man who surprises me with these every once in a while. 
My roommates say that I have a strange addiction to chocolate.  It's possible....whatever.
Chocolate is a tender mercy.  


Try one!
But doom on you if you ever steal one of mine.  DOOM, I say!

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Sunday, September 11, 2011

I go to college...

Sometimes I like to sleep/study on my roommates beds
and in their rooms instead of mine.  Sad face because I have to study.  
Ward Social!
I think sad face is my new funny face I make.  Even if I'm not sad
????
Cafe Rio with the roomies!  Brown eyes!!!
My roommate Brianna Timmons!!
Going to play tennis with the boys.  I love these guys!
They think they are really awesome.
Bulgaria!!  This is my teammate, Niels.  We aren't very good. :)
Boating at Utah Lake!
Me and cousin Alex being goofy on the boat. 
Roommate Sunday dinner!
After running home from the fireside in the RAIN!  

Puppy-dog face
Yummy new dessert recipe I tried.  Success!
And of course the tradition - Martinelli's sparkling cider!

Friday, September 9, 2011

Savior of the World Auditions

I think it is a good time to tell you about the experience I had when I tried out for Savior of the World last week. It was so amazing!  The church is true!
I have felt the strong need to try out for Savior of the World this year, and Wednesday I had my audition.  I don’t know if you knew this, but ever since I was little tiny, it has been my dream to be Mary in that show.  Anyway, so Adam helped me prepare a song to sing, and I was feeling pretty good about it.  I went into my audition, and saw a lot of familiar faces, and talked with people that I have know for years. That sort of calmed my nerves.  They took about 8 of us into a room and we all sang our songs, and I felt really good about mine, and the director had some very nice things to say about my performance. Next they took all of us into a room for further auditions.  I thought I would be done after singing!  So they had us read lines from the show.  It just so happened, wink wink, that we read from one of my favorite scenes in the whole show.  I don’t know if you remember the part, but it’s when all the women are preparing to meet Christ after He had risen, and the little children are asking them a lot of questions.  They take it as a teaching opportunity to tell about the Savior and why He had to die.
I got to read for MARY from my FAVORITE part of the show.  As soon as I started talking to the little boy, I lost it.  I couldn’t read the paper.  I could hardly get the words out.  I was so overwhelmed with the spirit, and I was baring my testimony through those lines.  Mary explains that when Christ was 12, she and Joseph lost him for 3 days.  He told them that he was going about His Father's business.  Mary relates it to how for 3 days after the Savior died, it felt as if they had lost Him again, but that it was again His Father's will.  He died so that He could take up His spirit, and us with Him.  It felt so real to me, and I knew it was all true. I seriously wept!  For like 10 minutes.  Everyone else in the room was crying too.  It was such an amazing experience for me.  All of us in the audition basically became best friends, and we just gave each other big hugs even though it was the first time we had ever met.  We are brothers and sisters in the gospel, and that knowledge brought us together at that time.  Even if I don’t make Savior of the World, I am so grateful for that opportunity.  I love my Savior so much, and “will follow Him whereEVER He wants me to go.” :)

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Today...

I missed you.   


A lot.  

Sunday, September 4, 2011

What I've been up to...

PICTURE STYLE!

I went to this little guy's blessing!  
Despite his face in this picture, I am pretty sure
I am his favorite aunt.  Yup.  
Sheesh!  I love him!
I tried out for this.....
and had one of the most amazing experiences of my life.
Of which I will probably share more about, later.
Attended my first day of my second year of college!
Got reacquainted with last year's roomies, and was reminded
of why I chose to live with them again (they are the best!!).
Welcome new roomy, Brianna!
Oh yeah.  Remembered what Friday nights in Provo are like. 
Went swimming lots!
Went on one last trip to St. George
Spent a week out on Pineview lake with my favorite people in
the Universe.
And was just crazy with my friends and fam!