If you're confused, please refer back to THIS post.
So you get to the top of the mountain. Victorious. Tired. Relieved. It's nice there, but it isn't everything you expected it to be. Not that it is bad, but you feel that for you, there is more. Something is missing. Perhaps time is all it would take, but what do you do NOW? At first you're a bit confused and afraid. "How could this be? Everything in me told me this was right." However, as the confusion clears, clarity replaces it. Clarity that "it could be" because the Lord allowed it to be - because it was what YOU wanted. You realize that sometimes the Lord teaches us lessons in His timing and in His ways, but sometimes He teaches us lessons in our timing and in a way that is best for us. You are overwhelmed with gratitude for His mercy and know that it is because of His strength you are well. You feel His love more than almost ever before. You feel that His wing is stretched over you as it has been all along. "What a climb!" you say. But not as a regretful exclamation - as a joyful one because you discovered, you learned, you stuck to something you knew in your heart that you needed to. You saw it through to the end. You gave 100% and surrendered to the feelings of your heart, and indeed, there is no regret in that. Most importantly you came closer to your Savior and to the supporters along the way. You learned how to rely on Christ in the hardest of times. You are now more yourself than when you set out on your journey. And even though the view at the top isn't what you hoped it would be, you are grateful for it because although for a time the climb was just a means to that ideal end, the end was really the motivator and the means to the journey. Sometimes the dream of the top was the only thing that could move you in several facets of life. What was it for then, if not for what you expected? It was for you, of course - as all challenges are. From the bottom of your heart you are grateful. God is merciful.
Of course, there is still room to mourn a bit. Any time you have to move on on let go of something that you have invested so much of yourself into, you have to go through a bit of an emotional process. A bit of redefining and self-searching has to take place. But mostly blind faith has to take place. As you take the first few steps of your continued climb, as you leave that mountain top behind, a few tears are shed. But. You know your guide. He is leading you and because of that, you move.
Excitement sparks. Optimism sets in and hope for maybe a new dream - one that you know nothing about ensues. So, here you go. On to the next climb. Forward. Up. Hey, maybe even in a circle and back again allowing for that time to settle dust. Who knows? Well, the Lord does and when you trust in Him, the future really does hold everything.
